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still not feeling sad

and i don't know what to think of that.  i keep thinking that i should be sad about my father dying, but i really don't.  i know that i can't really talk about this with either of my siblings, so i made an appointment with my therapist for thursday to talk about it.  hopefully, she can help me to get clear about what is going on.

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tommytesto
Jan. 4th, 2011 07:46 pm (UTC)
Hey - I saw your other post, but it seemed to end suddenly so I didn't know if you were quite done with it and wanted to wait. Good for you for touching base with your therapist. Your siblings are probably going through their own stuff, and you deserve a space to have your own feelings - or not - without your process being interpreted by other people (or maybe unintentionally misinterpreted, through their own lenses). I think most people have more of a range of thoughts and feelings when a parent dies than most people admit. It sounds like you are keeping in touch with what is actually going on for you, at your own pace, and that is the key thing, seems to me.

I know I don't comment a lot or post a ton here, but I am grateful for how LJ in particular allows these sorts of connections, as limited and particular as they are. I wish you well in dealing with this news and whatever family stuff may arise.
transman58
Jan. 6th, 2011 10:55 am (UTC)
thanks, tommy, it's always good to hear from you. i am allowing myself to not feel anything and mostly being okay with that. i talk to my therapist today so we'll see what she has to offer.
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